To The One In The Shadows

Dear Someone In The Shadows,

First of all, I didn't know why I am writing this first and foremost. You were not someone I would definitely spend my day with. You are someone my exact opposite. You were highly creative, I was just average. You are a musician, I am just someone who is a music enthusiast. You paint, I word weave. I am a carnivore, you are a herbivore. I am a coffee addict, while you have an affinity for natural leaves as tea.

I think the only thing that bind us are these: Our love for Nature, for music, for anything creative. I know you hate working on things that entail grammar and word play in English, I know you do. You always remind me to be my true self. You always keep reminding me that all things in life are free, and we should be able to take the flow of life. You always remind me that life goes on and on. It is a cycle. 

I am writing you this because I do not know why on earth and in the heavens did I ever saw you in a different light. I am not saying that I am falling for you. It is a different story all together. But here I am, starting my day and ending it by nightfall with you. I mean, you are one of the fewest people who took the initiative to communicate with me. We do not know each other personally, haven't met personally but then, I felt that this is just a new way for me to enjoy us --- something that I haven't really done with someone else. 

My only hope and wish is that, this Heart's Day, that you will still open up yourself to me, and that we will be able to break through the barriers that currently hinder us to be together in a level that we both understand. We both had different experiences, we also have different heartaches. You had been someone who had been through a lot, and we had been subjected to the harsh world ahead of us. I may not have experienced life at a level you had been, but I assure you that I am just here to support you all the way. You may not have said the magic word yet that most of the people are expected to utter tomorrow, but I am contented to what where are and where we are now. I am not perfect, neither are you, but we are always on the look out for the betterment of each of ourselves. I hope we will be able to take the time and be real to our emotions and feelings, and to whatever will tomorrow bring. 

If you will ask me if I am afraid of what tomorrow will happen, I am very much afraid. I may be a risk taker on most things and I am more open minded than women my age, but deep inside, I have this gnawing feeling of being afraid. I am afraid that you will be just like them, when all is said and done, you will be gone like the mist in the morning. I am afraid that when I have drowned in you, you will just let go and leave me in the air. I am afraid that when you will fall for me, you will suppress it as you had with your other feelings. I just hope you won't let go of me. 

I just hope my love. I just hope. 

Here's to starting my days and ending my nights with you, Mi Amore. I miss you and I hope to hug you tight. Soon.





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